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This morning when I woke up I felt ok for the first time since Jesse left. And I have felt that way all day. I met with my mentor tonight for dinner, she is a wonderful middle-aged woman from church. We are reading "Discipline: The Glad Surrender" by Elisabeth Elliot. The chapter we had studied was on "The Discipline of Time" and I was trying to finish it up today before we met and it really applied to my life right now. (Go figure). It was about how our times are in God's hands. Elisabeth Elliot wrote: "His timing is always perfect, though it seldom seems so to me, for my temperment longs for previews of coming attractions." She then quoted the verse, "Wait for the Lord. Be strong, take courage, and wait for the Lord."

This just really makes me take comfort in the fact that even though this situation seems like it has gone wildly out of control to me, it doesn't seem that way at all to God. He knows exactly what He is doing in our lives, and He meant for it to happen RIGHT at this exact place in time. It is happening for a reason.

This helps me to be calm and peaceful and just turn to the Lord. I've been spending more time in prayer and reading the Word. God is drawing me nearer to Him in my sadness, and lots of wonderful people are really reaching out to me with love. I feel very taken care of, even though Jesse isn't here. Thank you Lord!!!